Sunday, October 27, 2013

A woman has two smiles that an angel might envy, the smile that accepts a lover before words are uttered, and the smile that lights on the first born babe, and assures it of a mother’s love.

Is it possible that god might forget to give some of us things that normally should be in us? I mean seriously, let's think about it: desire for beauty, biological clock, mothers' unconditional love, etc, etc.
These are all the must have apps in a human system.. 
Now what worries me is that while I was waiting patiently in line for wisdom while god was making us, there's a slight chance I might have been left alone and someone else, most probably my sister, got my share of mother love everyone talks about. 
I mean don't get me wrong.. Dealing with kids is something beyond amazing.. You should work with them to know what I mean..
But having them all the time for myself, not only is not appealing at all, it hurts every inch of my heart. I don't know why they say a woman is blossoming while pregnant; life is tough enough without having someone kick you from the inside. When I see a friend pregnant I do all I can to congratulate them instead of holding them tight and let them know it's gonna be alright and how sorry I am for them.
Then one of my sisters, the suspected mother love thief of mine,  has started freaking me out reminding me I don't know what I'm missing without a child.. Now I'm just not sure if it is OK to tell her what she is missing that has a child! Should I remind her of my free mind and spirit and soul that all I need to worry about is if my husband's gonna lose weight for our next vacation including sea, sun and sex or should I let it be?