CAN'T WRITE!!!!

The Great Pleasure in Life is Doing What People Say You Cannot Do!!!

And one of the worst feeling's simply things everyone thinks you can do and you can't!!! Like finding a good job!!! I think I'm on the verge of breaking down!!! I know I've never worked but at least I had school to be busy with.. Now I have no excuse!!!! Honestly I don't think not finding a job is my fault tho:

Those jobs that I like, the interviwers don't like me and vice-versa!

And I just wanna ask one of those nasty, arrogant interviewers if they had ever been where I am now when they were young!!!!!

I'm pretty sure they all were.. They exactly know what a horrible feeling the whole process is.. And I believe all the hardness they had to take has simply turned into a big hatred complex and that's how they become this cruel, ruthless creatures!!!! I'm telling you these are the people that make a dent in your car just cuz your car is fancy!!!!!!!

They've forgotten those freaking days!!!! It's like our moms, when we were teenagers and how sometimes they were too strict with us and we couldn't stop wondering if they remembered how it felt to be a teenager!! My best friend and I promised each other to keep a journal and write those days just to make sure we won't forget.. well we never did but promised we'll remind each other..

I think it's time to remind those interviewers as well.. I have a job interview on Wednesday.. Instead of talking about my past experience I'm gonna talk about the dude's past.. Maybe it helps!!!!!

A Few Words With You!

Dear readers,

I'm really disappointed in you guys:

A year ago a girl committed a suicide. I don't know the girl and I don't know why she killed herself.. Apparently the girl had a weblog, which I've never read it but I read a comment from a guy that I didn't know either about the girl and he was like how come nobody noticed how depressed the girl was and how he didn't know the girl but from her weblog he could simply say she was anything but happy and he was surprised why people around her did nothing to help her feel better!!!!

Why I'm sharing this with you guys?? Cuz you could tell from my weblog that I was sad (for a wholeee week) and none of you cared enough to cheer me up? Weren't you afraid that I'll end up killing myself?? Do you know what a huge responsibility you all have to make sure I live long cuz you all know this world needs me???!!!!

I'm sorry to tell you this.. But you all failed.. You know why I never advertised for my weblog anywhere? Cuz I thought I have the best readers ever.. But if you don't care about my happiness, health and life in general, I need to find some caring enthusiastic readers and it just hurts!!!!!!

You Know that We Are Living in a Material World!!!!

Everyone has a friend who has nothing in this world and then one day a father's uncle's nephew of an aunt's neighbor dies..Coincidentally he/she was very rich and for 2 main reasons that are: 1) didn't have anyone and 2) was your friend's big fan he's given away all the money to your friend! We all know at least one person who's got rich like this, right?
So very secretly I made a list of far/old/rich/lonely relatives who I could count on.. After down sizing several times I came up with number 0!!!!
The number just broke my heart.. But then last month something happened maybe just to remind me never lose your hope!!! We wanted to sell our condo and you know who we did sell it to? An old lady that can hardly walk and talk!!!! I still don't know what the hell she needs this place for!! Anywayss when you wanna buy the place you bring your people to show them the place. right? She brought her friend.. someone who was soooo old that I can swear to god she's in this world illegally.. I'm serious the Death Angel can't find her for some reasons! So 2 very old ladies were thinking if she should get the place and she did it!!!
I'm not sure if you've got my point.. A rich/old/lonely lady bought our place!!! She could be the one..
So for a whole month I was living happily knowing I wasn't just a dreamer.. It was happening!
Make a long story short you know how when they buy a place they are allowed to check out the place several times? last night was her first time.. So I made her a hot chocolate to be a daughter she never had!!!
WRONG!!!! She came with 12 other people including her children, grand children and a sister and from what they were saying I realized one of the grandchildren is living with her!!! Little gold digger brat!!!!
I think I should accept it that I can never be that friend that other friends talk about and refer to as a lucky bastard!!!!!! Now I have no other choice but robbing a bank!!!
No other choice.. You understand No0000 Otherrrrrr Choiceeeeee!!!

Violence is One of the Most Fun Things to Watch!!!! (To Watch Not to DO!!!!!)

When they ask you what was your best day ever it's really hard to answer unless you've got married and you say your wedding day..Or the day you've give birth to a little kid.. But before huge things like that it's not easy to say when was the best day of your life!

But when it comes to worst days even without thinking you can say when was that.. Or at least I can say cuz it was yesterday and it's hard to forget..

So the whole thing started two days ago when I was on the phone and my brother asked me if we're going to "Paintball" with them.. You go to Wasaga beach.. You play, You swim, You get tanned..Who would say no to a whole fun day??!!

Our all inclusive fun day was yesterday.. I don't wanna get into details about how cold and rainy it was AGAIN cuz the whole weather thingy is getting boring.. I'm just mentioning it here to tell you our swimming, tanning, and other beach fun stuffs never happened cuz of the weather!!!!! Anyways we got there.. They gave each of us a coat, a mask and a gun! So I was like niceee looks like a war! We had to wait till the next game starts.. Meanwhile we could watch those who were playing!!!! OOHHHH My Goodness.. It didn't look like a war it was a war!!!!! The sounds were loud enough to freak you out!!!!

So by then I already felt kinda bad, I could hear my heart pounding and could feel my palms sweating.. So we went to the field and since I was so nervous I wasn't really listening to our leader that was telling us we should run to one side of the room and start shooting those who went to the other side of the room!!!! I just realized every one's running.. So like a sheep that has no other choice but following others I just followed my boy friend.. We found something to hide behind it.. The whole point was to kill people in front of you.. And by that I mean really killing them.. Those paint balls were soooo pain full.. I'm telling you they were not paint balls they were pure PAIN balls!!!!

After the first game I was so frightened and in pain that was just like I'm not gonna play anymore!!!! But my friends made me go back in there with saying:" You should get back in there and take revenge!!!!!!" As idiot as I am, I went in that hell one more time.. This time when I heard the whistle I ran so fast to get to the biggest thing I could hide behind and I sat there trying to find a way to run away!!! The only way to get out was to rise your gun.. It meant you've got shot and you have to get out of the game! But the thing was that while you had your gun in the air and was walking through the door people would still shoot you cuz they find it fun to see you jumping up and down while going out!!!!!!!

That was my last game.. For the rest of the day I was watching other guys playing and I couldn't help it thinking how people feel in real wars!!!! It's gonna be as scary as hell and gush pain full!

Anyways the result was a huge bruise on my knee, a bump on my finger and a broken heart of wasting my Saturday!!!!

I was telling my friends it was the worst kinda fun I could ever think of.. Before that I always thought skiing is the worst.. You know skiing combines outdoor fun with knocking down trees with your face but you go since everyone else is going and you just don't wanna feel left out!!! Thanks to god not so many people are big fan of this Paintball thingy and I don't need to force myself going there cuz everyone else is going!!!!

عادت شده یار مرا شیرینی بعد خواب ناز
ممنوع کردم بوسه را ترسم گرفتارش کند

خواهد که مهمانش کنم لبخندی از شهد لبم
دل میزند شیرینیش ترسم که آزارش کند

وقتست بداند هر چه او خواهد نباشد کام او
افسوس و ناکامی دل شاید که هشیارش کند

صد بار او را گفته ام از برگ گل نازکترم
باید نظر در گفته و رفتارو کردارش کند

ورنه به خواب بیند او گرمای آغوش مرا
سردی آه حسرتش ترسم که بیمارش کند

اشکم در آورده شبی خواهم که جبرانش کنم
باشد هوای پیکرم بر گریه وادارش کند

گفتم که عمری نام تو شه بیت اشعارم شده
شعری سروده تا مرا بانوی اشعارش کند

خواهد که در طرف چمن شاهد بگیرد نسترن
حلقه در انگشت و مرا یک عمر گرفتارش کند

باید نظر در گفته و رفتارو کردارش کند

Only Time!!!

I'm just so Tired of this Game..

Game of Arrow and Heart..

Gonna Give Away my Heart.

let Other Girls Play!!!

گفتمش دل ميخري؟

پرسيد چند؟

گفتمش دل مال تو،تنها بخند

خنده کرد و دل ز دستانم ربود

تا به خود باز آمدم او رفته بود

دل ز دستش روي خاک افتاده بود

جاي پايش روي دل جا مانده بود

When Angry, Count to four; When Very Angry, Swear!!!

There's someone inside you.. But you really don't care cuz you don't hear her.. But once in a while she wakes up and you feel she's restless.. She wants something but you don't get it.. and it makes you upset.. you know something's wrong but can't put your finger on it.. You need to be alone.. To talk to her.. To figure out the problem!!! You don't know how long it would take.. A day? A week? But you really don't mind.. you have to give it time to be happy again.. to feel the warmth in your blood.. To be able to laugh at jokes, mistakes, yourself,even life!!! And you need to do that not only for you..You owe it to people who are involved with you..
You can't get any help form outside..It's something between you and you..
All you need is time.. Is to be alone.. But people Hearing without Listening.. Or maybe it's just too much to ask for!!! What they do is they make the angry lady inside you fill you in and becomes you. And that's what you were fighting so hard not to happen: Preventing an upset lady to turn into an angry one!
Watch out people.. Watch ouuuutttt!!!

Sand Drawing/ Paintjam

دستخطي کـه تـو را عاشـق کرد,, شوخـيِ کاغــذي ماسـت، بخند

Some Go to Cottage to Read and Relax.. We Say Fuck Em We're Here to Drink and Have FUN!!!

It was the sign on the entrance of our cottage we went to last weekend.. I haven't put the pic to show off what a heaven we were in.. I just wanted to show you how much fun we could have but we didn't because of the weather!!!! I mean I don't get it! Why is it always like this?? Sunny and Hot weekdays, Rainy and Cold weekends!!!!!

This time was no exception: The whole week it was Sunny and Hot.. On Saturday it started raining and got cold.!!!! And Guess what??!! On Monday that we were leaving it all got sunny again!!

You know when you joke around with a friend which makes you laugh so hard but your friend hates the joke??

I swear to god I could feel god was laughing somewhere up there cuz he thought it's funny to make it rain as soon as we all were in our bathing suits and were going canoeing!!!

Dear people, when you wanna choose somewhere to live go with the good weather.. You can find job, nice houses, cool cars, fun people everywhere.. But a good weather is a must and veryyyyy rare!!!

God Couldn't be Everywhere.. So He Created Moms!!!

Whenever we wanna give an example to proof the existence of god we talk about women who give birth.. How suddenly they have milk, how the "unconditional love" all start having meaning..

What we never talk about is the sense they get as soon as the kid gets out! It's not one of the 5 senses and not a 6th sense.. It is called a "Mom's sense" and with that they EXACTLY know when your lying, when you're upset, when you're hiding something and every other thing.. You name it..

First you just can't believe it that she KNOWS.. Then it starts going on your nerves and freaks you out.. and finally you start accepting it.. Trust me you have no other choice!

When I was a kid I used to think of all the ways to find out how she does it.. Having cameras everywhere that I go??!! Hiring people to spy on me??!! Chasing after me all the time??!! You know stuffs like that! Then I realized it's not just me and my mom.. Every single kid that I knew had the same problem.. And I was old enough to know there are not enough cameras/people/time out there to be at our moms' service!!!!

Soooo after years of close examining, researching, studying and hard work I finally found the answer:

You know what car rental companies do to know where their cars are all the time? They put a GPS device in the car.. No matter where the car is unless it's underground the device can tell them where the car exactly is..When we're born something like a GPS starts growing in us and our Moms have the ability to track us down physically, emotionally even financially!!! It's something between god and them.. The privilege that only Moms can have..

My mom's really far from me.. Let's say 2 oceans, 1 or 2 continents and lots of countries are between us and as soon as I say hi to her on the phone she knows what's going on!! Isn't that amazing?

Just imagine we'd have this sense/power/incredibility whatever the name is with our guys!! Dear lord..Dear lord!!! Wish you had a lil more sense of humour and would give it to us as soon as we hook up with the guy.. What a fun world it could be and we're missing it big time!!!!! ;)

Scratch most feminists and underneath there is a woman who longs to be a sex object, the difference is that is not all she longs to be!!!

The coolest thing about being graduated is that you say to yourself: "I'm done!!!"
But when you think about it you simply don't know done with what??!!
The more you think about it the scarier it gets.. What do i wanna do? Who am i wanna be?? And the shitty part's that no one can really help you.. You have to figure it out yourself!!!
And that's when you are introduced to the whole world of "resume and sending it away.. Not hearing back.. keeping positive attitude and sending more like there's no tomorrow!!!!"
Gushhhh help me survive!!!!!!!!
Feminist people I was trying to be nice but can't keep it to myself anymore.. I hate you!!! seriously I do..
Why?? Cuz you've ruined my life!
How??!! My feminist friends you are the reason that world expect us women to study and work just to show guys we are "equal"!!!!!!!
I mean why you women care so much about what they think of you????? Like do you really think that guys care if we think of them as jack asses??!!!!!
you know how much happier we could be if all we needed to be worry about was our make ups, hair, nail, skin and other fun/healthy stuffs???
I know they're worthless but accept it we all love it.. Even guys have started liking it.. I put make up on my guy friend this weekend cuz he wanted to look "pretty"!!!!!
I swear to god men and women are replacing each other..While women work hard and don't find the time for themselves you find guys at gyms working out, in beauty salons shaping their eyebrows, in parties gossiping about others and giving comments about each other's hair, dress and other girly matters lol
You wanna be equal?? I'm telling you, you don't need to change.. they are doing their best to reach you!!!!
I wish I had written this one sooner maybe I could have helped the world!!!! Help??!! Save the world!!!
But seriously now that you know you've ruined my life at least make it up to me by finding me a good, well-respected job with lots of money and chocolate ice cream!!!!
Thank you:)

What Do You Want to Be When You Grow Up?

Yesterday I found a white hair in my well hair!!!!!!! Not totally white.. Half white, half black.. It means it's just started and it made me wonder.. You know how you're planning for the future and you have some deadlines for yourself? My deadline's always "when I grow up" and then this white thingy made me think.. Maybe I am a grown up!!!! Maybe it's the deadline!! If it's so I really need to rush.. Since I was a kid I've promised myself to do this, do that when I grow up and when years ago I received this "25 SIGNS YOU HAVE GROWN UP" email I felt so relaxed cuz I knew I've tons of years till then.. You all know the signs:

1. Your house plants are alive, and you can't smoke any of them.

2. Having sex in a twin bed is out of the question.

3. You keep more food than beer in the fridge.

4. 6:00 a.m. is when you get up, not when you go to bed.

5. You hear your favorite song in an elevator

6. You watch the Weather Channel.

7. Your friends marry and divorce instead of "hook up" and "break up."

8. You go from 130 days of vacation time to 14.

9. Jeans and a sweater no longer qualify as "dressed up."

10. You're the one calling the police because those f...king kids next door won't turn down the stereo.

11. Older relatives feel comfortable telling sex jokes around you.

12. You don't know what time Taco Bell closes anymore.

13. Your car insurance goes down and your car payments go up.

14. You feed your dog Science Diet instead of McDonald's leftovers.

15. Sleeping on the couch makes your back hurt

16. You take naps.

17. Dinner and a movie is the whole date instead of the beginning of one.

18. Eating a basket of chicken wings at 3 AM would severely upset, rather than settle, your stomach.

19. You go to the drug store for ibuprofen and antacid, not condoms and pregnancy tests.

20. A $4.00 bottle of wine is no longer "pretty good shit."

21. You actually eat breakfast food at breakfast time.

22. "I just can't drink the way I used to" replaces "I'm never going to drink that much again."

23. 90% of the time you spend in front of a computer is for real work.

24. You drink at home to save money before going to a bar.

25. When you find out your friend is pregnant you congratulate them instead of asking "Oh shit what the hell happened?

Seeeeee I'm not even close to that term yet! But a stupid white hair has changed everything!!

I went out of town to get rid of all the things that are bothering me these days for a weekend and came back as a grown up lady!!!! Not sure if I'm ready for that.. Not sure if you are ready for that.. Not sure if my whole definition that "grown up" means "boring and a lil scary" is right! Anyways we'll give it a shot! If we didn't like it we switch back to where we were;)

O Canada!!!

Finally it's done.. Yesterday I got the Canadian Citizenship and according to the judge it's the most wanted honor one could ask for..

Before the ceremony begins, this lady started talking to tell us what we should do when the judge enters and stuffs.. and she was sooooo excited like it was her kid's wedding.. An by the end of the ceremony I realized why she's so enthusiastic about the whole boring ceremony..

That's her exact words:

" This ceremony is like a marriage!!!! You take your oath to be loyal to this country and that's what we do when we get married.. We take our oath to be loyal to each other!!!!!!!!"

To sum up yesterday, which coincidentally was the first day of summer I got married to Canada.. Instead of asking for my parents permission I got Queen Elizabeth's blessing!!!!!

Yup I got married to a country that when you wanna take an oath you borrow some other country's Queen!!! I got married to a country that only 3 months a year has sun and warmth and even thinking of the summer for the rest of the year sounds ridiculous!!! I married to a country that when you sit in a bus or train you don't hear anyone speaks English.. It's all Chinese, Persian, Indian, Arabic, Some Europeans..But no English!!

I married to a country that it's last name is Ice land! A country with no history and no nothing.. A country that all of it's people are immigrants and we refer to those 1% that are originally from here as polar bears!!!!!! An Independent country which would fade away as soon as US and England stop supporting it!!!

But hey it's a free country after all and that's why we all are here and that's why according to the judge we should proudly say we are Canadians!!!!! ;)

I Hate It When...

I hate it when people ask each other How they're doing and pass by without hearing the response.. I hate it when people give each other negative/ugly comments just to look funny.. I hate it when people act like they like some one but as soon as she leaves start talking behind her back.. I hate it when people are just dreamers when you see no actions.. I hate it when a friend is upset and you can't do anything about it cuz you're the reason he's upset..

I hate it when people misunderstand the term "forgiving" with "forgetting". I hate it when people expect me to stay calm when I'm on the verge of explosion..

I hate it when people act like they don't know me juts cuz we're out of touch for a while and I hate it more when people who don't really know me act like they do!!!

I hate it when I have to smile when all I wanna do is to cry!! and I hate it when I have to say everyhting's cool when in reality it is not!!!

I hate it when people expect you to be there for them but when you need them they're anywhere but here!!! I hate it when an old friend e-mails me all she talks about is nagging why I don't write anymore and still doesn't say 1 word about how are things with her.. I hate it when people give each other a hand just when they need a favor from one another.. I hate it when people don't keep their word.. I hate it when people judge each other when they really don't know what's going on..

I hate it that we live in a century that people don't give value to honesty, kindness and love.. I hate it when people keep forgetting that sometimes being kind is more important than being right.. And I hate it when I forget it myself and have to write about it to remind it to myself !!!!

Life is Not about Waiting for the Storm to Pass...

It's about Learning How to Dance in the Rain!

My Boy Friend's Hero!!!!!!

Everyone has a hero.. It's just a non-written must in every one's life to have a hero in his/her life.. And I think when you don't have one you just try to find someone weird just to let the world know you are "UNIQUE"!
When we are kids our heroes are our parents, older sisters/brothers or close relatives.. Then we grow up and we realize there are more people than our close ones in this world and we start betraying our parents by switching our heroes from them to our favourite cartoon characters! For such a long time Joe in Little Women was my hero.. She was everything I wanted to be..She was funny, creative, ambitious, everything.. I juts loved her..
But then we grow older and we are introduced to the life of "reality" and we start understanding that it's just waayyy far from fictions and fairy tales.. We have to make an adjustment.. It's no more easy to announce Superman as our hero! So we start finding real people (although deep down in our hearts we still worship our real heroes.. i.e. Superman, Batman, Rocky, Zorro and of course Joe!)
It's been a while since Oriana Falachi's been my hero:
An iconoclastic journalist known for her war coverage and for aggressive, revealing interviews with powerful people!
On the other hand, my guy's hero is Dr. Mahmood Ahmadinejad:
An idiot president known for his retardish opinions and aggressive, revealing theories of wiping off other countries!
The more I think about it, the more I come to this conclusion that Opposites Do Attract..:)

When Everyhting Goes Wrong!!!

Yesterday was my first day of being super productive.. Woke up early to go out cycling with a friend to start our day fresh..
It was rainy but we were like nothing's gonna stop us.. So we went to this park which has lots of small wooden bridges.. On one of those cute bridges I felt I'm speeding too much.. So thought it's not a bad idea to slow down cuz I didn't want to fall down! As soon as I grabbed that brake handle thingy my bike slid off and the next thing I remember was that I, like those cool professional break dancers, was spinning on the asphalt road.. I don't wanna get into details about what has happened to my poor knees but sounds like no more skirts for quite a while!
Then I had to go to this job agency, or at least that's what I thought about them! Wasted 4 hours of my precious time to figure out they don't find you a job they find "How to Write Resume" classes for you!
I called my sister who's going to Iran for couple of months in a week to see when i could see her.. And still don't know what happened that she convinced (made is quite bossy and I never ever let the world knows what a bossy sister I have) me to go there and make everyone food Anddd to make everyone happy she called my other sister and invite them over as well!
I mean I love being around them just don't get it how I ended up cooking for 9 people!
Finally I went home to get ready to go to my friend's to practice for the drawing class we've enrolled.. My brother needed the car and basically I had to wait for one of the girls to give me a ride back home.. But she was sooooo excited about our practice session that didn't leave till 1:00 am!
Finally got home and gush I was tired!
To make my fun day complete, at 5 in the morning the fire alarm started beeping.. And I still don't know WHY it should always be early in the morning for those freaking devices to beep.. It always should be somewhere between 3-7 am.. ALWAYSSSS!
Anyways when I woke up this morning I realized I cannot move any part of my body since the whole body aches!
I'm telling you some people are not born to be productive, they're here to be fun, sexy and beautiful :)

Sad But True!!

Page one is a diet, page two is a chocolate cake. It's a no-win situation!!

Last week my sister was here.. And I hate it when people don't have anything to say they start giving each other comments!
Dear people please listen to this advice, always and by that I mean ALWAYS talk about the weather in this kinda situation.. it's boring but a really really safe subject to talk about!
Anyhowwww as I was saying, after looking around she stopped on me, stared at me for like 10 seconds and said: "Hey! Have you noticed you're turning into a pear!”
And the second thing that I hate is when someone says something they “THINK” is funny but in reality it’s NOTT and they keep going on and on about it! And apparently according to my sister I’m getting fat! And I’m starting looking like a pear!
Soooo I decided to start a diet for the first time in my life and I totally agree with this saying that probably nothing in the world arouses more false hopes than the first four hours of a diet! I mean what if I start it and by the end of the second week I realize that all I've actually lost was those two weeks?!
“I highly recommend worrying. It is much more effective than dieting.” And if you think about it you agree with me:
When you’re worried, you are stressed out but your brain’s functioning and helps you getting you out of depression meanwhile you lose your appetite and you lose weight! WHEREAS the idea of not having coke, chocolates and yummy foods may help you look more attractive but who likes a depressed, grumpy, truly sad girl?! (It’s up to you guys you want the depressed unhappy slim me OR fun happy fat me?!)
I really believe that people should have balance in their life:
And the balanced diet is a cookie in each hand :)
Have a wonderful veggie day!

"Love is an Irresistible Desire to be Irresistibly Desired."

دلخوش به فانوسم مکن اينجا مگر خورشيد نيست؟

"When I was a kid I used to pray every night for a new bicycle. Then I realised that the Lord doesn't work that way so I stole one and asked Him to forgive me."

We do that to our family, to our friends, to random people without really thinking what we mean by asking for their forgiveness..
I'd been thinking about it and I did have this problem with one of my so-called special people.. You know when you look back to see what went wrong and why and stuffs.. And I realized sometimes when people just ask for your forgiveness it's not cuz they mean it.. It's just that they wanna stop the whole fight.. And what can you say when someone tells you he/she is sorry??!! You can't say I can't forgive you! cuz that's the end of the friendship.. You can't act like everyhting's cool Cuz then you can't go on and talk about what has made you upset!!!
What happens is that you say it's ok but deep down you know it is not ok at all.. and then next thing happens and again you hear how he's sorry and again like you have no other choice you just say it's ok..
What the poor guy doesn't know is that he is playing with a TICKING BOMB and every single stupid apology that you hear gets him closer to your bad side! And then one day simply BOOM!! The bomb's exploded in the relationship and the damages are so high that you better just leave it as is and let go!
I know fights are terrible.. People say things that they don't mean them, people make each other angry and stuffs but after each fight there is a make up which makes the whole thing sweeter..
Next time say you're sorry when you really mean it.. You would see what a huge difference it makes..

دل ما رفته مهمانی به یک دریای طوفانی

به امیدی که ساحل داره این دریا

به امیدی که آروم میشه تا فردا

به امیدی که این دریا فقط شاه ماهی داره

به عشقی که نمیبینی شباشو بی ستاره

دل ما رفته مهمانی

به یک دریای طوفانی

باید پارو نزد وا داد

باید دل رو به دریا داد

خودش میبردت هرجا دلش خواست

به هرجا برد بدون ساحل همونجاست

How Can We Be So Different STILL Feel So Alike??!!

Thousand different types of people come in and out of your life..
Some of them, well, it takes time to get to know them and start liking/not liking them, some you just can’t stand from the beginning and then my favorite group comes:
Those you just feel it as soon as you see them.. You just talk to them on and on without noticing the time.. You realize you’re sharing your secrets with them without really knowing them well and without knowing why and you just enjoy being around them..
And the weird thing’s that most of the time you find them really different and then through those differences you find out your similarities.. And that's when a whole new journey begins..
And that's the beauty of life:)

If You Really Wanna Touch someone, Send Them a Letter!

I couldn't agree more.. I mean just imagine when you check the post, somewhere between all those nasty bills you have a mail from a special person.. Wouldn't it make your day?

Or when you check your e-mails in the pile of all those junk e-mails/forwards you have a real e-mail from a real friend.. It's just beautiful..

It is proven: Letters make people super happy.. But what if you can't read it?

It shouldn't be a bad hand writing for not being able reading it.. Some people have a really nice BUT unreadable hand writing..

I still think it's easier to deal with people with naturally bad hand writing.. They know they're bad and they try to make it readable.. But those nice-unreadables are simply encouraged to go on and write like this since everyone at the first glance says:"Woww very nice hand writing!!!!"

Anyways the result would be the same:

You have the letter and you're the happiest girl in the world.. you open it.. you try to read it.. first you're confused if it's "g" or "y" ..then kinda embarrassed that your friend was nice enough to write you and you cannot read it.. and finally you just leave it "as is" and pretend you've never got any mail!

And that's why whoever's invented e-mail deserves to go to heaven right away since he/she has solved many problems, has reduced many confusions and helped in getting rid of embarrassments..

!!! برگ از درخت خسته میشه وگرنه پاییز همش بهونس

You can safely assume that you've created God in your own image when it turns out that God hates all the same people you do!!!

Isn't that amazing?? As soon as I'm done with all the exams it's finally sunny, warm and beautiful outside.. You know what it means?? It means that god still loves me..
I was starting getting worried that she's totally forgotten about me.. But sounds like she simply was busy with some other needy, demanding people!!!
I still truely believe that we do need more than one god..The number of people is growing (I don't even wanna start talking about sick (mentally/physically) people), the level of expectations are going higher, people are becoming more self centered and need more attention.. The list goes on and on.. Seeee only one god can't answer every singel of us!
Cuz personally I do need one for myself to help me out with people I'm dealing with!!!
I'm not sure if I'm a girl with no nerves whatsoever or the number of people who are marching, jumping, runing on my nerves are remarkebly increasing!!!

Sometimes I lie awake at night and ask:" Where have I gone wrong! How do I always end up with this kinda people??!!" Then a voice says to me:" This is going to take more than one night!"

Ev ev ev everybody come on everybody..Shake it to the left now..Shake it to the right now..Ev ev ev everybody come on everybody..Keep dancing tonight!

Every single day that I woke up this week I felt like the world's smiling at me.. You know what a great feeling it is that you just feel happy and grateful for no reason? You just like things as they are..
My friend called me last night and we're going to this salsa dance class tomorrow..
And that made me think maybe I could take it seriously and become a professional dancer and stop being worried about what I should do..
But the problem's that: In today's world the word "professional dancer" is used for strippers.. I mean it's really funny, you see a girl, you start talking to her and she tells you how much she likes her job and how much she enjoys it and when you ask her what do you do.. She announces very proudly:"I'm a professional dancer... I dance with no clothes on!" Isn't that funny?? People are giving funny and surprisingly acceptable names to their professions.. Ask prostitutes..They never tell you :"I do have sex for money" they say they are "professional masseurs!"
I'm doing the same thing well not in a same level but still...When people ask me what do you do I just say I'm a "professional job seeker!"
I love playing with words.. It saves you from lots of situations, keep you away from embarrassment and gain you respect from others..
My sister was giving me some advice about a job interview I have this afternoon and it really hit me.. It's all about how you feel about yourself and how you make people think of you!

Just make every one think you're the best and soon you will be one ;)

The advantage of a bad memory is that one enjoys several times the same good things for the first time!!!

Sometims it's fun to be around people with bad memories.. You never feel like Oh mmy God I have nothing to talk about!! you can tell them the same thing over and over again and they listen to you like you're telling them a first hand news!!

Like with my sister I can always tell her jokes (and the funny thing's that she laughs hard at those she found funny for the fisrt time and gives me same comments about those she didn't like when i told her first!).. And it's so cool Cuz when I talk to normal people most of the times they respond me back with: "Yeah you've told me that before!!!!" (Seriously guys I know I talk alot but giving me 5 more minutes to finish whatever I was saying is not such a pain, is it??!! So from now on please have some consideration and let me finish my story !)

But anyways this whole thing makes me wonder:

"Why can we remember the tiniest detail that has happened to us, and not remember how many times we have told it to the same person??!!"

وحشت از عشق که نه ، ترس ما فاصله هاست
وحشت از قصه که نه ، ترس ما خاتمه هاست
ترس بيهوده نداريم ، صحبت از خاطره هاست
صحبت از کشتن نا خواسته عاطفه هاست
کوله باريست پر از هيچ که بر شانه ماست
گله از دست کسي نيست
مقصر دل ديوونه ماست

گویند مرا که بند بر پاش نهید

بیچاره دل است پای بر بند چه سود؟

The Picture Speaks for Itself!

You know when you're all down and tired and sleepy... and then you suddenly think of somehting that makes you forget about everyhting and just be happy??!!

I started my day like this.. Was really tired.. Kinda upset..Went to the class was totally bored and suddenly I remembered this is my last class FOREVERRRR!!! And I totally forgot all about how I felt and started feeling like a shiny happy girl:)

I think our nature is kinda helping us to just think about things that bother us.. But when you think about it you realize in life there are always so many things to be grafeul about.. For sure there are things in everyone's life that take them down... But if you look from the other side there are tons and tons of good things that are there to cheer you up.. Life has so many beautiful things to offer to you.. Just enjoy them.. Don't waste your time by letting things get into you!

Forgive But Don't Forget ... Just remember life goes on!!!

The stupidest thing I've ever heard is to forgive and forget... I understand why we should forgive cuz we're all humans and no body's perfect and that we all do mistakes and blah blah blah..

But forgetting??!! I mean if you forget how could you use it as your past experience??!!

Sometimes you wish you could forget.. Sometimes you wish things were different.. But the truth is that you learn alot about yourself in these kinda situations rather when everything's simply perfect..

So keep smiling. learn from your past, learn about yourself..

Being a woman is a terribly difficult task, since it consists principally in dealing with men!!!

Ladies & Gents,
Break ups are for sure hard, absolutely heart breaking and perhaps need so much time to find the closure to move on BUT it's not the end of the world.. We all know it and when we get involved in a relationship we know what might happen and still we go for it.. So when it comes to the end don't act like this was the last thing you could expect and for god sakes never ever tell a person who breaks up with you that:"You'll never find anyone like me again!" I mean c'mon..they should hope not! If they don't want you, why would they want someone like you??!!
Next time when your partner threatened you that he/she would leave you, help him/her pack instead of balling your eyes out.. Maybe you lose them forever but you have kept your dignity, which after a while when thinking about the past doesn't hurt, it helps you smile and be proud of yourself and perhaps me because of my word of wisdom;)

نو بهار است در آن کوش که خوش دل باشی

Just too bad that "YOU" doesn't read this weblog!!!!

Please be gentle with me!
I'm a little delicate today..
Don't speak so loud
YESS!! I know it's self-included..
Just leave me alone for a while!!!

دوباره با تو

با تو دوباره من شدم
عاشق جان و تن شدم
با تو گل از گلم شکفت
با تو دوباره زن شدم

با تو جوانه زد همه
شاخه خشک پیکرم
از تو پر از ترانه شد
برگ سفید دفترم

با تو دوباره جون گرفت
هر چی که در من مرده بود
انگار پسم داد زندگی
هر چی امانت برده بود

با تو نگاه مات من
پر از گلهای ناز شد
گل لبان بسته ام
به شوق بوسه باز شد

با تو تمام خستگی
از تن من به در شده
درد غریبی کم کمک
مرده و بی اثر شده

با تو دوباره میرسم
به حد بی حساب زن
به اوج بخشش و غرور
به مرز عشق ناب زن

با تو درخت پر برم
با تو ز بیش بیشترم
از بهترینها بهترم
من با تو چیز دیگرم

We're gonna Miss You!!!

There were laughters, there were cries…
There were fights, there were make ups..
The weather changed and so did we..
We took different roads for our trip!
There were angers, there were relieves..
There are tons and tons of memories..
Your happiness is all we want
Cuz no matter where you are, you’re in our minds
It is so lame that I do rhyme..
But believe it or not it comes right form my heart;)

You’re gonna be missed..

Touched by an Angel!

I do believe in angels.. and I do believe god send us those angels when you need them the most just to remind you, you still can go on..
There are times the road you’re trudging seems all uphill.. When things go wrong and you want to smile but you have to sigh.. And then when you think things couldn't get worse, someone would show up and bright up your world!
Isn't that amazing? I mean when you look back you realize what I'm saying... Every single time when you're on the verge of giving up it's always someone there for you who shows you the way, who helps you to survive!
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit and look for the signs.. Somebody's reaching out for you!

سکوت از من چه می خواهی که من از نسل طوفانم
سرشت بابکی دارم اهورای دلیرانم
مزن این گونه بر زخمم درفش بی علاجی را
علاج درد بی درمان خود را خوب می دانم
اگر کردم ، اگر ترکم ، بلوچ و ترکمن یا لر
مگو اهل فلان هستی
که من فرزند ایرانم

When the Heart's Smiling...

Sundays are usually (fineeee ALWAYS!!) dull days...Sunday evenings are for sure the worst pain in the butt.. Now just imagine if you've had the nastiest headache the whole day on a Sunday!!!!
Not that I want your sympathy or anything just wanted to help you picturing me the whole day lying down in my bed thinking of things I could have done if I could find a way to get rid of this headache!!!
Turning on the TV.. Not a bad idea to stare at something else rather than my ceiling for a change!! My favorite channel’s on: The Weather Channel!!!! -2… And on Tuesday’s again -11!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HELLPPPP… Somebody! Anybody!!! We are freezing in here! And it’s getting serious!
Eid is coming in almost 2 weeks! Where are the blossoms??? Where is the famous spring breeze??!!
Wow it’s been 6 years since the last time I celebrate our new year back home! And Gush it was FUN!! Here you really don’t feel it any more! Neither the New Year nor the arrival of the spring! Well we’re living in the Ice Land.. What do you expect after all??
You need one of my word of wisdom?? There you go:
Try to keep your hearts warm.. Cuz no matter how cold you feel outside, if you are warm inside.. No freezing weather, no snow, not even the dull headachy Sundays can bring you down..
Think about it and start fresh tomorrow;)

اگر تمام شب را در حسرت از دست دادن خورشيد سر كني لذت ديدن ستاره ها را هم از دست مي دهي

When it is broken, Only a miracle can mend it!!!

When was the last time that you just said, 'What the hell!' and did something crazy??!!
The problem's that most of the times we misunderstand the term “doing something crazy” with “doing something really stupid”!!!!
And the biggest difference is when you do something stupid you may not realize it until the day after.. and OH My God the feeling you have when you wake up the next morning.. and when you remember you wish you hadn’t woken up at all!!!!
I wish there were no regrets in life, just lessons.. I think that's the art of living..
What I've learned form my past is that what breaks in a moment may take years to mend!! Well you know what they say! Every lesson has a price and I've paid quite enough to come to this conclusion that the thing you break may be like Crystals, you don’t realize how much you love it until it breaks!
I just hope I never forget it!!!

Somethings are Better Left Unsaid!!

Let's be realistic.. Sometimes we just wanna see others pay for what they've done to us or to people that we care about!
And even if we don't say it aloud we all know that we'd be living in a boring, perfect world if everybody wished everybody else well!!! Do I sound mean??!! Atleast I'm not boring;)
Sooo..
Here's to those who wish us well, and those who don't can go to hell!!
And those "hellers" are lucky that I decided to leave some stuffs unsaid!!!

Hapy Valentine's Day Everyone!

I can’t help it.. No matter how I feel inside I just love this day.. It’s a celebration of love and I think the whole reason of us being alive is “to love and be loved!” Not that I just made that sentence I mean I totally agree with that! Lol
And it just breaks my heart when I see people who not only do not believe in this day (trust me I’ve seen a lot!!!) but also they make fun of it!!! And I’m just writing to let them know it is not a “freaking heart-shaped nightmare!!!” And calling Mr. Cupid a “weirdo” or thinking by “beating the crap out that weirdo” they actually cannot prevent falling in love!!! Anddd people who admire this day are for sure not some “loved-craze losers”!!!!!!!
C’mon look at it.. How can one don’t just adore this day??!!
When you go out, everywhere is just so RED, sexy and “hearty”!!!!
Candy hearts here, balloon hearts there.. Pink and red hearts everywhere.. Just BEAUtiful!
I’m pretty sure if Mr. Valentino was still alive he would have been impressed by all the decorations and effort that people (I mean normal happy people lol) put on this day!
Anyways I just wrote this to thank him.. Actually not him, the genius behind it who used Valentino’s death as an excuse to have a day like today!
Cheers to whoever he/she was!;)

سفره اي که پهن شد، اينبار خالي از دلتنگي بود...فقط بوي گلاب بود و گلهاي بي ريشه و درحال مرگ... بين آنهمه سکوت، مرور يک خط از قصه هاي تو براي گفتن تمام خاطراتم بس بود. راستش را بخواهی قصد ديدار، هرچه بود از نياز بود... به خداي بزرگ تو... و تو چه صادقانه هرچه مرهم داشتي، رو کردي وقتي ديدي از نشان دادن زخمهايم شرم دارم! حالا تمام غرور من از با تو بودن اين است که از پشت پنجره اي که تو باز کردي، گاهي خداي تو را ميبينم که ساده و صبور، آب و خاک و هوا را نوازش ميکند و تو آنطرفتر، درسايه يک درخت، آوازهاي خدا را زمزمه ميکني

when trouble melts like lemon drop..

Some people are naturally happy and positive like my cousin.. This girl doesn't know how to be sad and the way she deals with troubles is just awesome! And trust me I have TRIED to be like her, I just feel like it’s a given gift and you just can’t copy it from others…
Like those who are naturally talented in arts! No matter how hard you try to perform like them when the talent is not there, you won’t get any where.. Like my uncle and his violin!!!!
People choose different ways in dealing with their problems.. Some decide to be fighters and the rest pick the easier way, they’re flyers!!!
I’ve decided to be a fighter… It’s sometimes really hard but then the feeling you have when you tackle that trouble and solve it, is irreplaceable!
So it's up to you, you wanna be a fighter or a flyer!!! The choice is yours!!