They Say the Smallest Prayer Can Still be Heard!

Dear God:
Please help Atoosa stays young forever, make Anooshka a lil whiter, help others understand Arash's ideologies and find a way to let Marjan know piggy tail style doesn't suit her!!!
Please do something for Maryam so she eats as much as she wants but doesn't gain any weight, and just do your best to make Mani less grumpy!
Dear God:
Make Abbassi happy again and vanish this miserable creature you've sent us instead and don't change Shahram a bit cuz we love him as is! Make Kashani's labors end their strike and get back to work, and show me the way to Kazi's heart so he tells me that thing everyone knows but me!!!
Dear God:
Let Kamran knows I'm sorry for what I said and make him forget the whole last night conversation!
Please make sure Ali wouldn't change his mind about the party, Sibel wouldn't work on Tuesday and Sahar wouldn't feel I was the reason we cancelled the Windsor trip!!!
Dear God,
Please freeze this week and let me enjoy every single minute of it and find a way I don't go back to work any more.. (Lord in case you needed a hint winning a lottery could be a help!!!)
Make an exception and omit this hang over thingy from the whole universe, and help people live in a head-ache, stomach-ache and nausea free world!!!
Thanks God, Amen!

!!! باز هم میگویم حال ما خوب است ولی تو باور نکن

و بعد از آن همه طوفان و وهم و پرسش و تردید

کسی از پشت قاب پنجره آرام و زیبا گفت

تو هم در پاسخ این بی وفایی ها بگو در راه عشق و انتخاب آن خطا کردم

و من در حالتی ما بین اشک و حسرت و تردید

کنار انتظاری که بدون پاسخ و سرد است

و من در اوج پاییزی ترین ویرانی یک دل

میان غصه ای از جنس کوچک یک ابر

نمیدانم چرا؟ شاید به رسم عادت پروانگیمان باز

برای شادی و خوشبختی باغ قشنگ آرزوهایت دعا کردم

May you learn;)

Contentment With the Past, Happiness With the Present, And Hope For the Future!

Did you know there are people who really mean it when they say they go nuts if they have nothing to do for a while??!!

One of my sisters says that a lot, but well I always thought she just enjoys being on my nerves!!!! And for others I just thought they say it to say I don't know they're important or busy or unique.. you know things like that!!!

I mean seriously who would freak out because of having nothing to do, lying in front of the TV, talking on the phone, reading, going to beauty salons, going out and simply chilling??!!

When I look back it's not been such a long time ago since I'd had such a wonderfully amazing life and as stupid as I am I said NO to my heaven and started this new life style!

Do you think I was bored with that?

Hell No! Doing nothing and enjoying that used to be my thing!!!

The only reason I had to change was the embarrassment I felt whenever someone asked me:"So what do you do?!"

So with a broken heart, intense animosity towards early morning wake ups, and hatred for saying good-bye to all my fun times I started working!

But well this whole having-a-job thingy has helped me learn a lot about myself..

I mean I never knew how much I could hate Mondays and how freaking in love could be with after 4:30 P.M.s and Friday nights!!! I never knew I could spend the whole Sunday evenings feeling sorry for myself that another week's ahead of me.. I even didn't know that the 2 hours traffic on the way back home can make me so tired that all I think about be my comfy bed not having wine with a friend!!! I also didn't know what a patient girl I could be when all I wanna do is punching that bastard at work still smiling at him and say "Sure, I'll do that in 5 minutes!!" just cuz I wanna get promoted!!!

And above all I NEVER EVER knew I could stand this whole shit and still enjoying that.. Yup I've started loving my new boring hectic lifestyle.. (To all of you who keep reminding me don't try changing people cuz it's impossible!!!)

So again and again cheers to impossibles;)

... یه نفر که خوب می دونم گریه هامو دوست نداره

Not All The Mistakes Are Too Much Fun to Just Make Once!!!

I have a new confession to make:
My alcohol-Free Month was a big failure.. It turned out to be an alcohol-free week!!!! Anywaysss now I've made a new deal with myself and this time I HAVE TO stick to my plan:

I'm gonna start a Not-Doing-a-Stupid-Thing month!

Seriously over the past month almost two or three times a week I feel something in my stomach when I remember what I did/said the night before and I think it's time to stop that!

I'm not gonna say it's not been fun (at least some of them were) but time to start acting like a good, smart, logical girl!!!

من برای سال ها می نویسم

سالها بعد که چشمان تو عاشق می شوند

اما افسوس که قصه مادربزرگ درست بود

... همیشه یکی بود یکی نبود

Isn't It a Beauty??!!

Dear people,
Thanks a lot to all of you for all your discouragements about my new car.. Thanks for reminding me how much I should pay for the "Damn Car" and ofcourse the "Freaking Gas".. Don't talk to me like I don't understand cuz I do, it's just that I don't care.. So please stop letting me know what nice cars I could get with this amount.. Cuz I think IT IS a nice car and he's just perfect.. (Yeah it's a "he" I just can't drive a "she" all the time!!!)
So next person who gives me a negative comment about the newest love of my life I've no other choice but punching!!!!
And I don't get it.. When I've already got something and am really excited about it what's the point of ruining the mood just cuz I could get a better deal when you all know there's no way I could cancel the contract and moreover you can see how happy I am? Seriously what's wrong with you all?? Can't you see me happy? I like the happy me.. I talk more, smile more, and become exceptionally more easy going..
I think your first job, first car, first house stuffs like this should be something that totally satisfies you and makes you smile.. Cuz you'll never forget any of them! My dad still remembers his first car but ask him about his 3rd car and I bet he can't reply back without thinking!
It's like the first kiss.. I don't know any person who doesn't remember their first kiss with all the details.. And I needed to get something that makes me feel like "Yup I did it" whenever I see it, drive it everything!
And nope I'm not thinking about saving and stuffs.. I'll start saving when I feel I have to.. So stop ruining my day and leave me alone!
Thanks!

طفلکی کرم ابریشم

چه سرنوشت غم انگیزی که کرم کوچک ابریشم تمام عمر قفس میبافت ولی به فکر پریدن بود

Good Name in Man and Woman Is the Immediate Jewel of Their Souls!

There's this guy at work, we're on different floors but randomly bump into each other, have a small talk and leave.. This morning he asked my name and when I told him my name he stared at me like I'm a creature from some other planet and said: "Geez and I thought I have a strange name!"
So I asked for his name.. The guy's name is Kroom!!!!! Just to make it even weirder he added it's exactly like "Broom" but with "K"!!! And a Broom with K thought my name is weird!!!!!!
Last night on facebook I noticed this new application that calculates how sexy your name is.. As soon as I find the time I'll calculate my name just to compare it to his.. If in sexiness his name beats mine as well, I'm gonna cheat on our cleaning guy and make him my favorite!!!!!

Whoever Said Money Can't Buy Happiness is a Total Idiot!!!!!

Saturday morning I went to get a car.. I thought it should be this easy.. You go, you see, you like and you buy!!!!!

I was at my friend's and told him I have to go to buy a car but will be there by 2 to go for lunch.. That time I was so excited about the new unknown car that didn't notice the surprise and perhaps pity in his eyes..

I'm pretty sure you all know by now that I could make it to be there on time for lunch and of course with no new car!!! But I learned lots of things today regarding buying a car and would like to share it with you guys just to make sure you wouldn't make same mistakes:

1) You need to do lots of researches before actually going to the dealership!

2) You have to know your budget and understand your limits (I went to Mercedes-Benz.. When the sales guy found out about the price that was on my mind and the down payment I wanted to pay, very sincerely showed me the exit door!!!!!!)

3) Bye bye luxury, Classy, Look-at-Me-I'm-so-Hot cars.. And hello to Whatever-I-Need-This-Crap-to-Get-Me-to-Work cars!!!!!!

Life's so unfair and it's so freaking hard to get rich in this country and to add to my emotional pain and sorrow I found out Paris Hilton gets 1,000,000$ to attend a party!!!! I swear to god I can do that.. And you know what they say: "If you really enjoy what you're doing, you're gonna nail it!"

C'mon people you all know how only the idea of a possible party makes me excited for weeks.. Getting paid for just showing up!!!! Can you believe that??!!

Sooooo bank robbery is not my option anymore ( My apologies to all of you who I promised I would help!!!!) I wanna be a celebrity.. Only if Mr. Hilton was my grandpa things could get kinda easier!!!! But I've to start from somewhere anyways..

So dear people please pay me when I come to your parties!!

Thanks and have a sunny day!

And All that I can See is Just a Yellow Lemon Tree!!!

How Come We Can Land a Spaceship on the Moon, But I still Have To Brush My Teeth Every Night??!!

I'm not sure if I'm really in a good mood these days or I'm simply surrounded by funny people.. But people make me laugh with their comments.. I'll give you an example:

So this guy told me a couple of days ago that he knows what type of a girl I am.. Being curious to know what an stranger thinks about me I let him go on.. and he, very proudly, announced that: "You are type of a girl that sometimes sleep without brushing your teeth!!!!!!!!!!!!"

I mean C'mon how many people you guys know that brush their teeth every single night? And if you know or you're one of them I'm really sorry to let you know that you or the person you know is a freak!

I'm serious!!! What type of a normal person doesn't have a night that suddenly decides to sleep over at a friend's, or passes out cuz of drinking/smoking too much... Or is just too tired to get up and brush those teeth??

You don't believe me? Let me tell you something.. My best friend back home studies psychology and she once told me that according to psychologists those group of people that do everything as they're supposed to do i.e. always obey the rules, never do anything wrong etc. etc. are just bunch of freaks.. Soooo whenever I did/do something stupid (which I should mention I have a talent in doing that) I just remind myself at least I'm normal...

You wanna prove you're normal?? Every now and then go crazy and make people around you crazy.. Do that and you'll see you've not only avoided being a freak, but also have thrown yourself miles away from getting old!!!! :)

When you like your work place and every one's so friendly and likable it's kinda hard to pick your favorite.. But I think so far our Spanish Cleaning Guy is my #1. The whole thing started the very first day I met him: He was teaching Sandra, our receptionist, Spanish and asked me if I'm Spanish and I explained to him very clearly that I'm not!! Since then he keeps talking Spanish to me as soon as he sees me!!! Being 100% positive he totally understood I'm Persian not Spanish, I bet he just does that to put me in my "I-Don't-Know" Position...
You know how some people's expression's really funny when they don't know what's going on? I think I'm one of them.. My eyes widen with confusion, my mouth drops open and I remain silent to figure out what's going on.. And sounds like our Cleaning Guy has found a way to make his day by making me look dumb!!!
Now why he's my favorite??!! I just like his spirit.. Some people make the best out of everyhting.. I don't care if he does that by making me look dumb.. The guy has a great sense of humor which counts and I simply appreciate that!!!! And more importantly (VERY SECRETLY) I'm learning Spanish with the hope that one day I'll be able to answer him back in Sapnish and Hopefully Hopefullyyyy I'll see my dumb expression in his face;)

گفتی که می بوسم تو را
گفتم تمنا می کنم
گفتی اگر بیند کسی
گفتم که حاشا می کنم
گفتی ز بخت بد اگر ناگه رقیب آید ز در ؟؟
گفتم که با افسونگری او را ز سر وا می کنم
گفتی که از بی طاقتی دل قصد یغما می کند
گفتم که با یغما گران باری مدارا می کنم
گفتی که پیوند تو را با نقد هستی می خرم
گفتم که ارزانتر از این من با تو سودا می کنم
گفتی اگر از کوی خود روزی تو رو گویم برو؟؟
گفتم که صد سال دگر امروز و فردا می کنم

گفتی اگر از پای خود، زنجیر عشقت وا کنم؟؟
گفتم زتو دیوانه تر، دانی که پیدا می کنم

Aspiration for a Better Tomorrow!

Don't make promise when you are in Joy..
Don't reply when you are Sad..

Don't take decision when you are Angry..

Think Twice..Act Wise!

In Order to Make it Happen You Only Need One thing: EVERYTHING!!!!

Today at work my boss gave me this magazine, which he thought I might find it interesting and useful, with the comment that if I wanna succeed I need to increase my "general knowledge"!!!!

My whole idea of a magazine is gossips about celebrities so kinda surprised but very excitedly I opened the magazine just to find out with a broken heart that it was all about the growth of the shopping centres in North America!!!!! and since quite frankly I'm not a big fan of numbers I just started scanning it very quickly just in case he started talking about the boring articles I don't look as dumb as I thought I would!!

Anyways, I was going through the pages when I came to this advertisement with my title's topic..

"This would be a nice title to write about!!!" was my first thought and then I realized it's been a while since the last time I wrote..

I mean some times people get so busy with their every day life that they forget about their little worlds.. And I felt kinda bad.. Cuz my little world used to be where I would confide in whenever I felt like sharing and as soon as I reached to the point that I felt like finally I'm happy and satisfied with myself I forgot all about my precious little world..

I felt like one of those annoying people that keep calling you when they're down and as soon as they're done with that phase you simply don't hear from them anymore!!!!

So I'm just writing to let it know I'm not one of those annoying people.. The truth is that I don't find time to write!!! I mean when I'm at work tons of new things come to my mind to write about but I don't have access to my blog from there and when I get home there's always something to do.. Either people are coming over or I'm going somewhere perhaps just to prove to myself I've not turned into a boring gal..

And then late at night I'm so worried that I'm gonna oversleep the day after that all of the things that I wanted to write about flies away my mind!!!

And that's exactly why we don't have a part time philosopher!!! On behalf of all the philosophers let me tell you that we people need to be free to be able to focus!!!!

The only problem's that by thinking, focusing and writing you can never afford a Porsche and that's the problem of living in a materialistic world!!!!

There are two kinds of suffering:

The suffering that leads to more suffering and the suffering that leads to the end of suffering.

If you are not willing to face the second kind of suffering, you will surely continue to experience the first!!!

يادم باشد از چشمه درس خروش بگيرم و از آسمان درس پاك زيستن

يادم باشد سنگ خيلي تنهاست... اوراهم لطيف رفتار كنم مبادا ترك بردارد

يادم باشد براي درس گرفتن و درس دادن به دنيا آمده ام ... نه براي تكرار شتباهات گذشتگان

يادم باشد روز و روزگار خوش است وتنها دل ما دل نيست

يادم باشد جواب كين كمتر از مهر نباشد

.جواب دورنگي كمترازصداقت

.يادم باشد در برابر فرياد سكوت كنم...بر سياهي نور بپاشم

يادم باشد زندگي را دوست دارم

يادم باشد معجزه قاصدكها را باور داشته باشم

يادم باشد گره تنهايي و دلتنگي هركس فقط به دست دل خودش باز مي شود

يادم باشد هيچگاه لرزيدن دلم را پنهان نكنم تا تنها نمانم

يادم باشد هيچگاه از راستي نترسم و نترسانم

يادم باشد زندگي با عشق زيباست

يادم باشد زنده ام

They Keep Saying the Right Person Will Come Along, I Think Mine Got Hit By a Truck!!!!!

We've all heard the story that Alexander was so tired ..Almost had lost the war.. Was sitting by this wall looking at an ant, which was trying so hard to climb up the wall with a small piece of food in her mouth.. Almost half the way up the food, perhaps too heavy for her, fell down on the ground.. Little ant walked down the wall got her food went up and again it fell down.. Having nothing else to do, Alexander kept watching the ant.. The hard struggle to keep the food in her mouth while going up the wall.. Anyways long story short, he counted and the ant finally reached up the wall successfully with the food in her mouth after 3 hundred and something trying and failing.. And anyways Alexander realized when a small ant is so determined to get what she wants how come he couldn't.. So he went back and apparently won the war!!!
Why I'm saying all this totally irrelevant to the tile??!!

I think we all have this consistency somewhere deep down.. I mean “Most of us women like men, you know; it's just that we find them a constant disappointment" and we still go for it..

I'm not even sure anymore if we're trying to find love or simply are challenging ourselves to do the impossible!!!!

God bless us!;)

Afraid to Sell Yourself??!!

OK.. That's it.. Finally got a job..
I don't know how I feel yet! For sure happy, kinda worried and just a little tiny biny sad.. I mean saying good-bye to this life style is not easy!!!!

So it all started when my recruiter called me and was so excited about this job opportunity and he kept on talking about how big this company is and how full of opportunities it is!

The excitement started growing on me and made me kinda nervous.. What if the interview goes bad.. Any tips??!!

"Ah don't worry just try your best to sell yourself!!!"

So I went there not sure how to feel about selling myself to a total stranger!!!!!

The whole process of sales was pretty easy tho..

A big smile.. A nice compliment.. A brief description of myself and when she started talking I realized that I've successfully sold my self to this lady to work under her!!!!!!

Trust me it's not as bad as it sounds...

Awwwwww~~~

Just a quick description of the clip:

"I produced this animation as a way of proposing to my girlfriend (now wife) Natasha. I assembled a team of 20 animators to assist me, including co-workers, as well as students from my 3D character animation class at the Art Institute of California-San Francisco. We created more than four minutes of animation in just three months.

When it was completed, I surprised Natasha by bringing her to the Parkway Movie Theater in Oakland, where they played the animation on the big screen in front of over 100 of our friends and family. The entire event was filmed for the TLC television show "A Perfect Proposal.""

An Ostrich's Eye is Bigger than Its Brain. I Know Some People Like That!!!!!

I was at this woman's office.. She was sending an e-mail.. But sounded like she couldn't finish it.. and then she told me: "I'm really sorry it takes so long.. I'm trying not to insult someone!!!"
That time we both laughed..
But this morning when I wanted to write I just remembered the office lady.. Sometimes it's really hard to write to people or talk about them without insulting them!!!!
My dad has always told me silence is the best policy.. Whether you want to ignore someone, insult someone or whatever, just show no reaction whatsoever!!!! And my mom has taught me to listen to whatever my dad's told me!!!!!!
Now the problem's that I think we'd be living in a boring, perfect world if everybody wished everybody else well..
But what can I say??!! I'm a Lady and can't swear.. Well not in a public, at least!!!
Soooo let's just leave it unsaid, wishing each other well and continue our boring, perfect world!!!!!

Friends are Like Bras: Close to Your Heart and There for Support!!!

Is it possible that you're always happier when you're with your friends than spending some time alone with the guy you're dating?

For such a long time I'd been thinking or maybe deciding that commitment is not my thing. Casual dating, having fun is more my type.
I mean everyone's quite perfect for the first couple of months but after that they start being themselves and that's when it's their time to say good-bye! Is it possible that I haven't found my type yet or I just can't stand sharing my life with someone besides my family and friends who I've already shared it with?
Do you make it happen to love someone so truly that no matter what you still have the feeling for the dude or is it something that starts by a click and grows on you naturally??!!
One of the things about breaking up is that your friends become extremely nice to you. For those that this happens more often, they do have the privilege of enjoying this niceness more often! It's like “Friends are God's apology for relations!!!"
And that's when you realize how much you need them.. How much you appreciate them being your friend and being there for you..
you just can't help it but celebrating the happiness that they give you and feel like that's exactly what you want..

But what if when you're 40 or older??!! What if that's when you regret what you'd decided while you were Young and now wanting having a family??!! What if when it's too late to have your own family you realize you made a huge mistake??!!

For sure we're responsible for things that happen to us in the future but how do we know how we would feel by then to make it happen now??!!

The Big O was Right!

Your Celebrity Look-Alike!!!

All those who agree that being celebrity increases your sexiness say I...
I mean c'mon Sarah Jessica Parker is for sure a funny, lovable actress.. But a sexy, well dressed lady??!! Give me a break..
The whole thing started a couple of days ago when my friend called me and was so excited about this "your-celebrity-look-alike"website she had found.. And how the whole purpose is to put your picture there and the site would show you in percentage how much you look like a celebrity...
Quite interesting, eh?
And then she announced really proudly that she and S.J Parker have 79% similarity!!!! For the sake of our friendship I spent 15 minutes of my precious time convincing her she needs to shut it down right there and stop telling people, since it's a total insult to herself!
I'm telling you.. Tell the first person you see this evening: "Oh My God you're so like this actress I don't know her name".. And without giving it a second thought they'll thank you for the compliment without knowing if the gal is gorgeous enough to take it as a compliment!!!
I say it all but still couldn't wait to get off the phone and check out the website myself..
But the thing's that this windows vista is not compatible with lots of programs so until now I can't give you an exact percentage of my similarity to Angelina Jolie! Until I fix the problem had no other choice but putting the pic above but I should mention here the slight differences that you see is totally due to lack of experience in my
amateur photographer comparing to hers!!!! ;)

My Grumpy, Angry DoorMan!!!

From being officially homeless to having a nice, cozy place was quite a journey.. Although I've started liking the new place still miss the old one:

I'd had my most amazing times there.. Hosted the most adorable people there.. Saw the most beautiful sunrise there and since then have started one of my most precious journeys from there!

But recently I feel like I've missed our concierge people most! They were nice and friendly.. Well..sometimes too friendly.. I mean if I were in a rush had to find another door to exit cuz the day shift lady used to talk a lot..

And now here in this new condo there is this security guy that has chosen this job perhaps to punish himself!!!!! The dude hates his job!!

In the past couple of weeks since we were moving here, had to go downstairs a lot and had the pleasure to see him several times a day!!! Every single time I gave him a cheerful loud HI and in return he just mumbled something, which til now I'm not sure if he was saying hi back or simply swearing at me!!!!

The guy started getting on my nerves.. So I made a new deal with myself: "Just ignore him!" But the problem was that I couldn't help myself.. As soon as seeing him, another cheerful greeting and still same reaction..

It continued till 2 days ago when I had a job interview.. so went down stairs saw the guy and told him: " Hey wish me luck.. I've a job interview"

And for those of you who do not believe in miracles:

My grumpy, always upset mostly angry black doorman, smiled and said :" Oh yeah go and get it!"

Now I'm not sure if being jobless rises the sense of sympathy in people or simply the fact that I had done my hair, had put up make up and looked like a lady for the first time since we've moved here put a smile on his depressed face..

Whatever the reason was, these days me and my door man greet each other with a big smile and wish each other a nice and wonderful day!!

3 hoorays for this big achievement:)

شايد آن روز که سهراب نوشت :" تا شقايق هست زندگي بايد کرد"خبري از دل پر درد گل ياس نداشت

بايد اينجور نوشت هر گلي هم باشي چه شقايق چه گل پيچک و ياس زندگي اجبارست

Sadness is always the legacy of the past; regrets are pains of the memory

There are worse things I could do,
Than go with a boy or two..
Even though you might think it's no good,
I suppose it could be true..
But there are worse things I could do
I could hurt someone like me,Out of spite or jealousy
I don't steal and I don't lie,
But I can feel and I can cry
A fact I'll bet you never knew
But to cry in front of you,
That's the worst thing I could do!!!

Moving today.. Help needed!!!

You know how they say a good sleep is necessary for your health, skin, hair and everything? If people around you know that, consider yourself lucky!!! Cuz my sisters don't believe in this kinda crap!!!!

So 8 in the morning the first one called cuz his son had slept over here and she needed me to get him ready by 8:30.. Being an aunt is not an easy task!!! I mean you just can't say excuse me I slept at 4 in the morning.. what about my skin, hair and the rest!!! All you have to say is:"sure sweetie, no problem!!!"

By 9:30 I was totally sleepless was making my cover letter to send to this company in Vancouver (Yup one of those times that I have to be anywhere but here again) when my other sister called... So I thought it's one of those sweet morning calls that you just make to see how everyone's doing and let them know you love them..

WRONG!

She was totally breathless and I was scared to death if everyone's OK.. In between that breathless speech with lots of unfinished words and sentences I could get some words like Tuesday.. Moving.. My house.. The garage..

Having faith in my sister and knowing she's not insane I tried to calm her down to see if her house is on fire!!!! Anywaysss long story short she was trying to remind me that our closing date is this coming Tuesday and I really don't wanna get into details how hard it's gonna be cuz basically for 3 weeks we're gonna be homeless (special thanks to my brother and my realtor!!!!) and until then we're gonna stay at my sister's..

Anyways the more I was trying to calm her down the more freaked out she was.. And then she started telling me how we can't count on her husband cuz he's injured his hand and that we should go to her place this afternoon to make some place in her garage.. That's when I told her ummm I can't come this evening I have French class.. You know those 3 second pauses that you know somebody's gonna get hurt??!! It didn't last that much!!! In less than 2 seconds she basically exploded and I think (not sure if that's what she was trying to say tho.. It's not easy to comprehend her when she's yelling) that she was telling me that I shouldn't go to that class when I have so many things to do!!!!

It's 10:40 now.. My cover letter is undone.. My sister has a possible upcoming heart attack.. and I've sat here writing:

Moving today.. Macho, strong man needed bad.. Being Hot is not required but definitely is an asset!!!! Call 647-668-...

Making a Wish!

"If an angel asks me what's your biggest wish I would say that I wish I could eat as much as I want without being worry about my body and weight!!!!"
That's my best friedn's biggest wish!!!! I was like you sure that's what you want? You can ask for money and do all kind of surgeries to stay fit and beautiful but like a determined lady who's given it lots of thoughts she just shook her head and said Nope that's what I want.. I wanna stay slim no matter what!!!!
And it made me wonder what if there was a Jinni in a Bottle??!! What if she was there to make one of your wishes come true?! What would you wish for??!! Happinness? Health? Eternal Love?
I would wish there were no endings for good things cuz I can't stop wondring why:
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end!!!

تقدیم به لطافت انوشکا :) و

فهمیدن عشق را چه مشکل کردند

ما را ز درون خویش غافل کردند

هیچ کس به فکر ماهیها نیست

سهراب بیا که آب را گل کردند

CAN'T WRITE!!!!

The Great Pleasure in Life is Doing What People Say You Cannot Do!!!

And one of the worst feeling's simply things everyone thinks you can do and you can't!!! Like finding a good job!!! I think I'm on the verge of breaking down!!! I know I've never worked but at least I had school to be busy with.. Now I have no excuse!!!! Honestly I don't think not finding a job is my fault tho:

Those jobs that I like, the interviwers don't like me and vice-versa!

And I just wanna ask one of those nasty, arrogant interviewers if they had ever been where I am now when they were young!!!!!

I'm pretty sure they all were.. They exactly know what a horrible feeling the whole process is.. And I believe all the hardness they had to take has simply turned into a big hatred complex and that's how they become this cruel, ruthless creatures!!!! I'm telling you these are the people that make a dent in your car just cuz your car is fancy!!!!!!!

They've forgotten those freaking days!!!! It's like our moms, when we were teenagers and how sometimes they were too strict with us and we couldn't stop wondering if they remembered how it felt to be a teenager!! My best friend and I promised each other to keep a journal and write those days just to make sure we won't forget.. well we never did but promised we'll remind each other..

I think it's time to remind those interviewers as well.. I have a job interview on Wednesday.. Instead of talking about my past experience I'm gonna talk about the dude's past.. Maybe it helps!!!!!

A Few Words With You!

Dear readers,

I'm really disappointed in you guys:

A year ago a girl committed a suicide. I don't know the girl and I don't know why she killed herself.. Apparently the girl had a weblog, which I've never read it but I read a comment from a guy that I didn't know either about the girl and he was like how come nobody noticed how depressed the girl was and how he didn't know the girl but from her weblog he could simply say she was anything but happy and he was surprised why people around her did nothing to help her feel better!!!!

Why I'm sharing this with you guys?? Cuz you could tell from my weblog that I was sad (for a wholeee week) and none of you cared enough to cheer me up? Weren't you afraid that I'll end up killing myself?? Do you know what a huge responsibility you all have to make sure I live long cuz you all know this world needs me???!!!!

I'm sorry to tell you this.. But you all failed.. You know why I never advertised for my weblog anywhere? Cuz I thought I have the best readers ever.. But if you don't care about my happiness, health and life in general, I need to find some caring enthusiastic readers and it just hurts!!!!!!

You Know that We Are Living in a Material World!!!!

Everyone has a friend who has nothing in this world and then one day a father's uncle's nephew of an aunt's neighbor dies..Coincidentally he/she was very rich and for 2 main reasons that are: 1) didn't have anyone and 2) was your friend's big fan he's given away all the money to your friend! We all know at least one person who's got rich like this, right?
So very secretly I made a list of far/old/rich/lonely relatives who I could count on.. After down sizing several times I came up with number 0!!!!
The number just broke my heart.. But then last month something happened maybe just to remind me never lose your hope!!! We wanted to sell our condo and you know who we did sell it to? An old lady that can hardly walk and talk!!!! I still don't know what the hell she needs this place for!! Anywayss when you wanna buy the place you bring your people to show them the place. right? She brought her friend.. someone who was soooo old that I can swear to god she's in this world illegally.. I'm serious the Death Angel can't find her for some reasons! So 2 very old ladies were thinking if she should get the place and she did it!!!
I'm not sure if you've got my point.. A rich/old/lonely lady bought our place!!! She could be the one..
So for a whole month I was living happily knowing I wasn't just a dreamer.. It was happening!
Make a long story short you know how when they buy a place they are allowed to check out the place several times? last night was her first time.. So I made her a hot chocolate to be a daughter she never had!!!
WRONG!!!! She came with 12 other people including her children, grand children and a sister and from what they were saying I realized one of the grandchildren is living with her!!! Little gold digger brat!!!!
I think I should accept it that I can never be that friend that other friends talk about and refer to as a lucky bastard!!!!!! Now I have no other choice but robbing a bank!!!
No other choice.. You understand No0000 Otherrrrrr Choiceeeeee!!!

Violence is One of the Most Fun Things to Watch!!!! (To Watch Not to DO!!!!!)

When they ask you what was your best day ever it's really hard to answer unless you've got married and you say your wedding day..Or the day you've give birth to a little kid.. But before huge things like that it's not easy to say when was the best day of your life!

But when it comes to worst days even without thinking you can say when was that.. Or at least I can say cuz it was yesterday and it's hard to forget..

So the whole thing started two days ago when I was on the phone and my brother asked me if we're going to "Paintball" with them.. You go to Wasaga beach.. You play, You swim, You get tanned..Who would say no to a whole fun day??!!

Our all inclusive fun day was yesterday.. I don't wanna get into details about how cold and rainy it was AGAIN cuz the whole weather thingy is getting boring.. I'm just mentioning it here to tell you our swimming, tanning, and other beach fun stuffs never happened cuz of the weather!!!!! Anyways we got there.. They gave each of us a coat, a mask and a gun! So I was like niceee looks like a war! We had to wait till the next game starts.. Meanwhile we could watch those who were playing!!!! OOHHHH My Goodness.. It didn't look like a war it was a war!!!!! The sounds were loud enough to freak you out!!!!

So by then I already felt kinda bad, I could hear my heart pounding and could feel my palms sweating.. So we went to the field and since I was so nervous I wasn't really listening to our leader that was telling us we should run to one side of the room and start shooting those who went to the other side of the room!!!! I just realized every one's running.. So like a sheep that has no other choice but following others I just followed my boy friend.. We found something to hide behind it.. The whole point was to kill people in front of you.. And by that I mean really killing them.. Those paint balls were soooo pain full.. I'm telling you they were not paint balls they were pure PAIN balls!!!!

After the first game I was so frightened and in pain that was just like I'm not gonna play anymore!!!! But my friends made me go back in there with saying:" You should get back in there and take revenge!!!!!!" As idiot as I am, I went in that hell one more time.. This time when I heard the whistle I ran so fast to get to the biggest thing I could hide behind and I sat there trying to find a way to run away!!! The only way to get out was to rise your gun.. It meant you've got shot and you have to get out of the game! But the thing was that while you had your gun in the air and was walking through the door people would still shoot you cuz they find it fun to see you jumping up and down while going out!!!!!!!

That was my last game.. For the rest of the day I was watching other guys playing and I couldn't help it thinking how people feel in real wars!!!! It's gonna be as scary as hell and gush pain full!

Anyways the result was a huge bruise on my knee, a bump on my finger and a broken heart of wasting my Saturday!!!!

I was telling my friends it was the worst kinda fun I could ever think of.. Before that I always thought skiing is the worst.. You know skiing combines outdoor fun with knocking down trees with your face but you go since everyone else is going and you just don't wanna feel left out!!! Thanks to god not so many people are big fan of this Paintball thingy and I don't need to force myself going there cuz everyone else is going!!!!

عادت شده یار مرا شیرینی بعد خواب ناز
ممنوع کردم بوسه را ترسم گرفتارش کند

خواهد که مهمانش کنم لبخندی از شهد لبم
دل میزند شیرینیش ترسم که آزارش کند

وقتست بداند هر چه او خواهد نباشد کام او
افسوس و ناکامی دل شاید که هشیارش کند

صد بار او را گفته ام از برگ گل نازکترم
باید نظر در گفته و رفتارو کردارش کند

ورنه به خواب بیند او گرمای آغوش مرا
سردی آه حسرتش ترسم که بیمارش کند

اشکم در آورده شبی خواهم که جبرانش کنم
باشد هوای پیکرم بر گریه وادارش کند

گفتم که عمری نام تو شه بیت اشعارم شده
شعری سروده تا مرا بانوی اشعارش کند

خواهد که در طرف چمن شاهد بگیرد نسترن
حلقه در انگشت و مرا یک عمر گرفتارش کند

باید نظر در گفته و رفتارو کردارش کند

Only Time!!!

I'm just so Tired of this Game..

Game of Arrow and Heart..

Gonna Give Away my Heart.

let Other Girls Play!!!

گفتمش دل ميخري؟

پرسيد چند؟

گفتمش دل مال تو،تنها بخند

خنده کرد و دل ز دستانم ربود

تا به خود باز آمدم او رفته بود

دل ز دستش روي خاک افتاده بود

جاي پايش روي دل جا مانده بود

When Angry, Count to four; When Very Angry, Swear!!!

There's someone inside you.. But you really don't care cuz you don't hear her.. But once in a while she wakes up and you feel she's restless.. She wants something but you don't get it.. and it makes you upset.. you know something's wrong but can't put your finger on it.. You need to be alone.. To talk to her.. To figure out the problem!!! You don't know how long it would take.. A day? A week? But you really don't mind.. you have to give it time to be happy again.. to feel the warmth in your blood.. To be able to laugh at jokes, mistakes, yourself,even life!!! And you need to do that not only for you..You owe it to people who are involved with you..
You can't get any help form outside..It's something between you and you..
All you need is time.. Is to be alone.. But people Hearing without Listening.. Or maybe it's just too much to ask for!!! What they do is they make the angry lady inside you fill you in and becomes you. And that's what you were fighting so hard not to happen: Preventing an upset lady to turn into an angry one!
Watch out people.. Watch ouuuutttt!!!

Sand Drawing/ Paintjam

دستخطي کـه تـو را عاشـق کرد,, شوخـيِ کاغــذي ماسـت، بخند

Some Go to Cottage to Read and Relax.. We Say Fuck Em We're Here to Drink and Have FUN!!!

It was the sign on the entrance of our cottage we went to last weekend.. I haven't put the pic to show off what a heaven we were in.. I just wanted to show you how much fun we could have but we didn't because of the weather!!!! I mean I don't get it! Why is it always like this?? Sunny and Hot weekdays, Rainy and Cold weekends!!!!!

This time was no exception: The whole week it was Sunny and Hot.. On Saturday it started raining and got cold.!!!! And Guess what??!! On Monday that we were leaving it all got sunny again!!

You know when you joke around with a friend which makes you laugh so hard but your friend hates the joke??

I swear to god I could feel god was laughing somewhere up there cuz he thought it's funny to make it rain as soon as we all were in our bathing suits and were going canoeing!!!

Dear people, when you wanna choose somewhere to live go with the good weather.. You can find job, nice houses, cool cars, fun people everywhere.. But a good weather is a must and veryyyyy rare!!!

God Couldn't be Everywhere.. So He Created Moms!!!

Whenever we wanna give an example to proof the existence of god we talk about women who give birth.. How suddenly they have milk, how the "unconditional love" all start having meaning..

What we never talk about is the sense they get as soon as the kid gets out! It's not one of the 5 senses and not a 6th sense.. It is called a "Mom's sense" and with that they EXACTLY know when your lying, when you're upset, when you're hiding something and every other thing.. You name it..

First you just can't believe it that she KNOWS.. Then it starts going on your nerves and freaks you out.. and finally you start accepting it.. Trust me you have no other choice!

When I was a kid I used to think of all the ways to find out how she does it.. Having cameras everywhere that I go??!! Hiring people to spy on me??!! Chasing after me all the time??!! You know stuffs like that! Then I realized it's not just me and my mom.. Every single kid that I knew had the same problem.. And I was old enough to know there are not enough cameras/people/time out there to be at our moms' service!!!!

Soooo after years of close examining, researching, studying and hard work I finally found the answer:

You know what car rental companies do to know where their cars are all the time? They put a GPS device in the car.. No matter where the car is unless it's underground the device can tell them where the car exactly is..When we're born something like a GPS starts growing in us and our Moms have the ability to track us down physically, emotionally even financially!!! It's something between god and them.. The privilege that only Moms can have..

My mom's really far from me.. Let's say 2 oceans, 1 or 2 continents and lots of countries are between us and as soon as I say hi to her on the phone she knows what's going on!! Isn't that amazing?

Just imagine we'd have this sense/power/incredibility whatever the name is with our guys!! Dear lord..Dear lord!!! Wish you had a lil more sense of humour and would give it to us as soon as we hook up with the guy.. What a fun world it could be and we're missing it big time!!!!! ;)

Scratch most feminists and underneath there is a woman who longs to be a sex object, the difference is that is not all she longs to be!!!

The coolest thing about being graduated is that you say to yourself: "I'm done!!!"
But when you think about it you simply don't know done with what??!!
The more you think about it the scarier it gets.. What do i wanna do? Who am i wanna be?? And the shitty part's that no one can really help you.. You have to figure it out yourself!!!
And that's when you are introduced to the whole world of "resume and sending it away.. Not hearing back.. keeping positive attitude and sending more like there's no tomorrow!!!!"
Gushhhh help me survive!!!!!!!!
Feminist people I was trying to be nice but can't keep it to myself anymore.. I hate you!!! seriously I do..
Why?? Cuz you've ruined my life!
How??!! My feminist friends you are the reason that world expect us women to study and work just to show guys we are "equal"!!!!!!!
I mean why you women care so much about what they think of you????? Like do you really think that guys care if we think of them as jack asses??!!!!!
you know how much happier we could be if all we needed to be worry about was our make ups, hair, nail, skin and other fun/healthy stuffs???
I know they're worthless but accept it we all love it.. Even guys have started liking it.. I put make up on my guy friend this weekend cuz he wanted to look "pretty"!!!!!
I swear to god men and women are replacing each other..While women work hard and don't find the time for themselves you find guys at gyms working out, in beauty salons shaping their eyebrows, in parties gossiping about others and giving comments about each other's hair, dress and other girly matters lol
You wanna be equal?? I'm telling you, you don't need to change.. they are doing their best to reach you!!!!
I wish I had written this one sooner maybe I could have helped the world!!!! Help??!! Save the world!!!
But seriously now that you know you've ruined my life at least make it up to me by finding me a good, well-respected job with lots of money and chocolate ice cream!!!!
Thank you:)

What Do You Want to Be When You Grow Up?

Yesterday I found a white hair in my well hair!!!!!!! Not totally white.. Half white, half black.. It means it's just started and it made me wonder.. You know how you're planning for the future and you have some deadlines for yourself? My deadline's always "when I grow up" and then this white thingy made me think.. Maybe I am a grown up!!!! Maybe it's the deadline!! If it's so I really need to rush.. Since I was a kid I've promised myself to do this, do that when I grow up and when years ago I received this "25 SIGNS YOU HAVE GROWN UP" email I felt so relaxed cuz I knew I've tons of years till then.. You all know the signs:

1. Your house plants are alive, and you can't smoke any of them.

2. Having sex in a twin bed is out of the question.

3. You keep more food than beer in the fridge.

4. 6:00 a.m. is when you get up, not when you go to bed.

5. You hear your favorite song in an elevator

6. You watch the Weather Channel.

7. Your friends marry and divorce instead of "hook up" and "break up."

8. You go from 130 days of vacation time to 14.

9. Jeans and a sweater no longer qualify as "dressed up."

10. You're the one calling the police because those f...king kids next door won't turn down the stereo.

11. Older relatives feel comfortable telling sex jokes around you.

12. You don't know what time Taco Bell closes anymore.

13. Your car insurance goes down and your car payments go up.

14. You feed your dog Science Diet instead of McDonald's leftovers.

15. Sleeping on the couch makes your back hurt

16. You take naps.

17. Dinner and a movie is the whole date instead of the beginning of one.

18. Eating a basket of chicken wings at 3 AM would severely upset, rather than settle, your stomach.

19. You go to the drug store for ibuprofen and antacid, not condoms and pregnancy tests.

20. A $4.00 bottle of wine is no longer "pretty good shit."

21. You actually eat breakfast food at breakfast time.

22. "I just can't drink the way I used to" replaces "I'm never going to drink that much again."

23. 90% of the time you spend in front of a computer is for real work.

24. You drink at home to save money before going to a bar.

25. When you find out your friend is pregnant you congratulate them instead of asking "Oh shit what the hell happened?

Seeeeee I'm not even close to that term yet! But a stupid white hair has changed everything!!

I went out of town to get rid of all the things that are bothering me these days for a weekend and came back as a grown up lady!!!! Not sure if I'm ready for that.. Not sure if you are ready for that.. Not sure if my whole definition that "grown up" means "boring and a lil scary" is right! Anyways we'll give it a shot! If we didn't like it we switch back to where we were;)

O Canada!!!

Finally it's done.. Yesterday I got the Canadian Citizenship and according to the judge it's the most wanted honor one could ask for..

Before the ceremony begins, this lady started talking to tell us what we should do when the judge enters and stuffs.. and she was sooooo excited like it was her kid's wedding.. An by the end of the ceremony I realized why she's so enthusiastic about the whole boring ceremony..

That's her exact words:

" This ceremony is like a marriage!!!! You take your oath to be loyal to this country and that's what we do when we get married.. We take our oath to be loyal to each other!!!!!!!!"

To sum up yesterday, which coincidentally was the first day of summer I got married to Canada.. Instead of asking for my parents permission I got Queen Elizabeth's blessing!!!!!

Yup I got married to a country that when you wanna take an oath you borrow some other country's Queen!!! I got married to a country that only 3 months a year has sun and warmth and even thinking of the summer for the rest of the year sounds ridiculous!!! I married to a country that when you sit in a bus or train you don't hear anyone speaks English.. It's all Chinese, Persian, Indian, Arabic, Some Europeans..But no English!!

I married to a country that it's last name is Ice land! A country with no history and no nothing.. A country that all of it's people are immigrants and we refer to those 1% that are originally from here as polar bears!!!!!! An Independent country which would fade away as soon as US and England stop supporting it!!!

But hey it's a free country after all and that's why we all are here and that's why according to the judge we should proudly say we are Canadians!!!!! ;)

I Hate It When...

I hate it when people ask each other How they're doing and pass by without hearing the response.. I hate it when people give each other negative/ugly comments just to look funny.. I hate it when people act like they like some one but as soon as she leaves start talking behind her back.. I hate it when people are just dreamers when you see no actions.. I hate it when a friend is upset and you can't do anything about it cuz you're the reason he's upset..

I hate it when people misunderstand the term "forgiving" with "forgetting". I hate it when people expect me to stay calm when I'm on the verge of explosion..

I hate it when people act like they don't know me juts cuz we're out of touch for a while and I hate it more when people who don't really know me act like they do!!!

I hate it when I have to smile when all I wanna do is to cry!! and I hate it when I have to say everyhting's cool when in reality it is not!!!

I hate it when people expect you to be there for them but when you need them they're anywhere but here!!! I hate it when an old friend e-mails me all she talks about is nagging why I don't write anymore and still doesn't say 1 word about how are things with her.. I hate it when people give each other a hand just when they need a favor from one another.. I hate it when people don't keep their word.. I hate it when people judge each other when they really don't know what's going on..

I hate it that we live in a century that people don't give value to honesty, kindness and love.. I hate it when people keep forgetting that sometimes being kind is more important than being right.. And I hate it when I forget it myself and have to write about it to remind it to myself !!!!

Life is Not about Waiting for the Storm to Pass...

It's about Learning How to Dance in the Rain!

My Boy Friend's Hero!!!!!!

Everyone has a hero.. It's just a non-written must in every one's life to have a hero in his/her life.. And I think when you don't have one you just try to find someone weird just to let the world know you are "UNIQUE"!
When we are kids our heroes are our parents, older sisters/brothers or close relatives.. Then we grow up and we realize there are more people than our close ones in this world and we start betraying our parents by switching our heroes from them to our favourite cartoon characters! For such a long time Joe in Little Women was my hero.. She was everything I wanted to be..She was funny, creative, ambitious, everything.. I juts loved her..
But then we grow older and we are introduced to the life of "reality" and we start understanding that it's just waayyy far from fictions and fairy tales.. We have to make an adjustment.. It's no more easy to announce Superman as our hero! So we start finding real people (although deep down in our hearts we still worship our real heroes.. i.e. Superman, Batman, Rocky, Zorro and of course Joe!)
It's been a while since Oriana Falachi's been my hero:
An iconoclastic journalist known for her war coverage and for aggressive, revealing interviews with powerful people!
On the other hand, my guy's hero is Dr. Mahmood Ahmadinejad:
An idiot president known for his retardish opinions and aggressive, revealing theories of wiping off other countries!
The more I think about it, the more I come to this conclusion that Opposites Do Attract..:)

When Everyhting Goes Wrong!!!

Yesterday was my first day of being super productive.. Woke up early to go out cycling with a friend to start our day fresh..
It was rainy but we were like nothing's gonna stop us.. So we went to this park which has lots of small wooden bridges.. On one of those cute bridges I felt I'm speeding too much.. So thought it's not a bad idea to slow down cuz I didn't want to fall down! As soon as I grabbed that brake handle thingy my bike slid off and the next thing I remember was that I, like those cool professional break dancers, was spinning on the asphalt road.. I don't wanna get into details about what has happened to my poor knees but sounds like no more skirts for quite a while!
Then I had to go to this job agency, or at least that's what I thought about them! Wasted 4 hours of my precious time to figure out they don't find you a job they find "How to Write Resume" classes for you!
I called my sister who's going to Iran for couple of months in a week to see when i could see her.. And still don't know what happened that she convinced (made is quite bossy and I never ever let the world knows what a bossy sister I have) me to go there and make everyone food Anddd to make everyone happy she called my other sister and invite them over as well!
I mean I love being around them just don't get it how I ended up cooking for 9 people!
Finally I went home to get ready to go to my friend's to practice for the drawing class we've enrolled.. My brother needed the car and basically I had to wait for one of the girls to give me a ride back home.. But she was sooooo excited about our practice session that didn't leave till 1:00 am!
Finally got home and gush I was tired!
To make my fun day complete, at 5 in the morning the fire alarm started beeping.. And I still don't know WHY it should always be early in the morning for those freaking devices to beep.. It always should be somewhere between 3-7 am.. ALWAYSSSS!
Anyways when I woke up this morning I realized I cannot move any part of my body since the whole body aches!
I'm telling you some people are not born to be productive, they're here to be fun, sexy and beautiful :)

Sad But True!!

Page one is a diet, page two is a chocolate cake. It's a no-win situation!!

Last week my sister was here.. And I hate it when people don't have anything to say they start giving each other comments!
Dear people please listen to this advice, always and by that I mean ALWAYS talk about the weather in this kinda situation.. it's boring but a really really safe subject to talk about!
Anyhowwww as I was saying, after looking around she stopped on me, stared at me for like 10 seconds and said: "Hey! Have you noticed you're turning into a pear!”
And the second thing that I hate is when someone says something they “THINK” is funny but in reality it’s NOTT and they keep going on and on about it! And apparently according to my sister I’m getting fat! And I’m starting looking like a pear!
Soooo I decided to start a diet for the first time in my life and I totally agree with this saying that probably nothing in the world arouses more false hopes than the first four hours of a diet! I mean what if I start it and by the end of the second week I realize that all I've actually lost was those two weeks?!
“I highly recommend worrying. It is much more effective than dieting.” And if you think about it you agree with me:
When you’re worried, you are stressed out but your brain’s functioning and helps you getting you out of depression meanwhile you lose your appetite and you lose weight! WHEREAS the idea of not having coke, chocolates and yummy foods may help you look more attractive but who likes a depressed, grumpy, truly sad girl?! (It’s up to you guys you want the depressed unhappy slim me OR fun happy fat me?!)
I really believe that people should have balance in their life:
And the balanced diet is a cookie in each hand :)
Have a wonderful veggie day!